For whomever whispers, “I don’t know who I am anymore,” there is hope on the other side of grief.

From Shattered to Restored.

I Don’t Know Who I Am Anymore is a guide through those moments when you wonder if the nightmare will ever end, a testament to the truth that God has good things in store for you, and a reminder that even your pain can become a beautiful part of who you are becoming.

Inside this book, each chapter offers practical and spiritual companionship as you:

• Embrace the realities of sadness and faith

• Reset your foundation in the image of God

• Redirect doubts and despair toward a God-filled purpose

• Realize how deep grief carves space for a deeper ability to love

• Reclaim your value, your identity, and your incredible worth

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How do you survive when everything that gave meaning to your life suddenly disappears?

Grief can spark the question, God, when will you see me? 

Carole Holiday has weathered heartbreaking loss and the despair that whispers, "I don't know who I am anymore." Through her trials, including divorce, job loss, and heart surgery, she has learned that deep grief carves space for a deeper ability to love.

In her unique, lyrical writing style, Carole shares her story of grief and explores biblical teaching that offers a God-given purpose after pain. As an extra dose of comfort, she seasons her story with savory recipes from a cooking school she once owned, where she learned firsthand the healing that takes place around the table. Carole's humor and warm encouragement gently remind readers that God has good for them--even in a season of severe loss.

  • “Carole Holiday is a one-of-a-kind writer. She has the ability to draw you into her writing and stories, while also allowing you to see yourself in her words and experiences. She is a true treasure. This book is a gift to anyone who feels like they’ve lost themselves after heartbreak and loss changes everything they see. Let Carole guide you toward the hope you’ve been searching for when you can’t see a way forward for yourself. 'I Don’t Know Who I Am Anymore' is a warm hug you don’t want to miss!”

    - Amanda Bacon, Proverbs 31 Ministries, coauthor of Shiny Things, cohost of All the Mom Things podcast, & host of the At Night podcast

  • “I loved this book. Carole Holiday’s wonderful personality, wit, and wisdom come through on every page. And for a book about dealing with her own grief and healing, it is an absolutely enjoyable and hopeful message. My wife and I love Carole Holiday and after reading this, you will too. Plus, there is help on every page for all of us who have experienced grief.”

    - Jim Burns, PhD • president of HomeWord and author of Doing Life With Your Adult Children

  • “If you’ve picked up this book perhaps grief has taken hold of your heart and life. Now, not only do you have support in this book but you have a dear friend in Carole Holiday as well. She’s that person who finishes your sentences, gives you the safe space you need to cry, and somehow makes you giggle out loud even when you’re hurting. You’re in for an adventure of healing through savoring these pages and her most treasured recipes too. In the presence of someone like Carole, who listens and understands, you’ll find who you are again.”

    - Dr. Sheri Keffer, relationship therapist and author of Intimate Deception

  • “'I Don’t Know Who I Am Anymore' reads as a late-night, lingering conversation after an exquisite home-cooked dinner, where your best friend is a grandma named Carole who is holding both your hands (in between shoveling second helpings of a homemade chocolatey dessert onto your plate) and walking you through your own season of grief step by step, with unparalleled spiritual wisdom, humility, and wit. In the same way I wouldn’t want that dinner to end, I was unable to put this book down. Carole’s writing is stunning and superb; a modern- day ‘chicken soup for the soul’ that had me in tears as I recounted my own trauma and the way God’s led me through it, while simultaneously laughing out loud at her clever use of humor, which is doled out generously. A must read for anyone struggling in their faith, struggling with identity after loss, or really anyone who seeks to better answer the question ‘why do bad things happen to good people?’ This book would make a wonderful gift for the woman in your life who is experiencing loss; I’m going to keep a few copies on hand to give out appropriately for years to come.”

    - Laura Lawson Visconti, cofounder DRINK COFFEE DO STUFF and author of Believing is Seeing

  • “In this thoughtful book, Carole helps us find our way Home by giving language to the voices that dwell in the deepest chambers of our wounded souls–a place where only God can commune with us through our suffering and in our pain. With transparency, sensitivity, and grace, she manages to walk us through the perils of loss with hope and expectation. Carole reminds us that when seasons of grief occupy enormous real estate in our lives, they ‘will someday vacate,’ leaving room for wisdom beyond anything we can understand until we go through the mystery of ‘invisible grief’ ourselves.”

    - Virginia Dixon, founder and CEO ofTender Hearts Enterprises, author, leader, and speaker

In her unique, lyrical writing style, Carole shares her story of grief and explores biblical teaching that offers a God-given purpose after pain. As an extra dose of comfort, she seasons her story with savory recipes from a cooking school she once owned, where she learned firsthand the healing that takes place around the table. Carole's humor and warm encouragement gently remind readers that God has good for them - even in a season of severe loss.

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